afternoon world,
Have you been that person who is a hopeless romantic? Wants to love at all cost ,even if it means assisting in breaking yourself down? You know what your doing, but you do it anyway.
No matter what you do, you find yourself jumping from relationship to realtionship and leave yourself to wonder and question yourself, what's wrong with me?.. what did I do?. Nobody loves me!!
You take that mindset then critically find every flaw about you and blame yourself.
We're so eager to find that perfect love, that we will sacrifice our own sanity and well being just to say we have someone.
Before I got in the relationship I'm in now , I was with someone for 15 years... and I lost myself in those 15 years, not his fault I just did what I thought you were supposed to do based on what I've seen And heard growing up.
I lost who I was as an individual, then I begin to questioned myself, was I offering all that I could for myself as I did for my significant other, did I jump into this simply because I had to feel that void.. The answer surprisingly is YES, we are good friends NOW and excellent at co-parenting, we both had to step back and look at what each of us brought to the table .
Although our hearts were genuine, there was a lot toxicity that had built up throughout the course of us being together.
I can be an adult and expressed that I had no clue what it took for it to take if you get my drift. yeah I've dated, but wtf was a realtionship really!!!
We had alot in common, but if we had learned to love self first and knew what to bring into our relationship before hand, we probably would've never been or lasted as long as we did..
we had, as I said an idea. Which was later clarified in a conversation as what to what we thought a relationship was... even laughed at one point and was like we stayed in it longer than we should have, but how do you disconnect from something/someone you've grown accustomed to and it was better than being alone.
It was weird because I had already disconnected and found myself doing some of what you'll hear in the video. I actually just had to finally say , I couldn't do this anymore...
when you mentally check out , go completely out.. because it will create resentment, then the finger pointing begins... I'm fully now am aware of what I bring to the table and took time, to know me and figure out what a realtionship has to be in order to grow, folks it's not all glitter and gold and magical unicorns and shit , it's work, alot of committed work by both parties.
I'm older now , my communication has gotten better , and I had to redefine my self to stand with someone or stand alone.
watch the clip and enjoy
https://www.instagram.com/tv/B-xSU4mpQ-N/?igshid=1gzmufrwj2iqi
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