Hello World,
Besides finding a new job, I jumped the broom , it was last minute but everything went off without a hitch. We had so many obstacles trying to plan during covid, who to invite ,who not to invite,!!!! it just became insane. We had originally planned a small private ceremony with Joe's side of the family in Washington then Covid really pushed the envelope folks became sick, event got cancelled and boom there we were, left in the dark.
At this point I wonder if I would ever become that bride I had dreamed of becoming. I knew where our relationship stood, but being Joe's wife , was going to be a fulfilment in itself , after all I had proven to myself what a wife and a wife's role was and damn it, I was ready to honor them. You see I had been engaged before twice to be exact. first time Was my daughter's father. I was young, but I was smart enough to listen to myself and not get married because we were doomed from the start.
Second was Jojo's father. We had been together so long I felt it was only right after all he was a great stepfather, helped raised my daughter until her death and we had Jojo, So it made since, right!! wrong, If I didn't learn nothing I learned, not all fairytales are meant to come true, you just have to see how the story writes itself out. You can't create things from something non existence, did we love each yes, but we both had different concepts of what a relationships is/was. I think I went into that engagement because I felt it was overdue. We gave it a run for 15 years but there were things we learned about each other as we got older our ideals, views, expectancy of our roles... everything changed it shifted, but at the time I didn't understand after all I knew everything when it came to relationships, but I didn't !!! God places people in your life for a reason, they sometimes are not meant to stay with you on your journey of life and you have to learn to let go and discover who you need to be so that way when you meet someone , you know your desires and what to offer your partner.
Then there's my husband Joe, you see Joe was that friend I never had to worry about. He made it easy for me to be me, I could actually be just my role in the relationship, not 15 others.. he was, just what I was searching for and that was to be loving, compassionate, and to give the love.. I felt we both was missing something that we both long for but never knew it.. It also helped that we were friends first. and that helped in making a decision on to be friends or something more. let's just say he said he waited for me for 6 years. We at times are inseparable. I never want him to go a day not knowing how I felt, How much I missed him throughout a day, and how much I appreciated him, and that was he was the light I need to live, I needed his light to help me grow to help me shine and in the same I would offer that in return, So when the marriage topic came up Heck yeah I was ready , It was a feeling that I've never felt before but I just knew, but we are not talking just my feelings here , he /we had to be on that same page. I just knew however this story wrote itself , I was all in.. fast forward we were married 11-27-20. In a short wedding in Vegas, My husband has promised me my beachside wedding in August 2021 and to give me the wedding I deserved.
I look forward to each day being the best wife and mother I can be. Marriage is not easy. it is a lot of work, communication and working out issues that should be worked out between the two of you. when you start bringing outside folks into your inside problems and situations that's when shit happens, because you see not everyone is for you. be selective on your company , don't let your past interfere with you future and remember to make your partner a priority in decisions you are making big or small, and don't never assume something will be ok because nothing is never said, simply include your partners feelings..
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